If God is omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent just like the Holy Bible describes, does God has the ability to produce an infinite number? Fundamentally, both yes and no.

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Lets walk through this puzzle by answering the NO part first. Asking a question like this is similar to question God whether he can write a sentence in red using a blue ball pen, or asking God whether he can create the infinitely heavy object physically and holds it with his bare hands. The contradiction lays upon the philosophical limitation of logic. Essentially, one must understand the basic concept of  infinity before understanding of the contradiction at the higher level.  Infinity is not solid number mathematically, infinity is practically a philosophical concept. The nature of infinity has the fundamental ability to break down the hard-stoned laws of mathematics and science.

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Perhaps you had never noticed before – we naturally accept the concept of infinity without any scientific proves.  Infinity does not have a mathematical end point, the entire concept is simply presented by an elegant symbol , yet magically we sense the nature of infinity conceptional. Or take this to a more proximal approach, our brain is restricted by a practical cognitive limitation although we think we understand infinity. Although we can “sense” infinity, or imagine the “largest” number we can think of, that number is essentially finite because we’ve all know, we can take that number and add 1 to it. Our brain contains approximately 10^27 atoms, and based on calculations of the molecular brain structure, there are approximately 10^70,000,000,000,000 kinds of “cognitive combination” we can facilitate. Such astounding increase is responsible by the brain’s complex neuro circuitries and multiple neuro-synapses. And

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if 10^70,000,000,000,000 + 1;

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The mathematical number stated above is beyond our mankind comprehension. Infinity originates here. The complexity from there is “infinitely” difficult to comprehend by our tiny brains and can only be understood as a “sense” or a “feeling”.

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So if God facilitate a number of 10^70,000,000,000,000  + 1, should we conclude that number as “infinite” because it is beyond human comprehension? Well, initially it is a little tricky to define what is infinite.

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Lets assume we have a bag that contains infinite numbers of marbles, we have (). Next, we take a marble from the bag and we have: (∞ – 1). The bag still has an infinite number of marbles only it has one marble lesser from the beginning. If we take another marble from the bag of infinity, we have: (∞ - 2) and so on. Ironically, regardless of the (n) number of marbles we have taken from the bag, we will still have infinite marbles left. Taking this idea to an extreme, we take away numbers of marbles which results in: (∞ - ) and yet we still have infinite number of marbles left in the bag! In fact, we cannot distinguish the quantity of infinity nor can we analogize or compare the fundamental nature of infinity.

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Taking from here on, we understand that infinity is a theoretical concept that is virtually beyond the laws of mathematics. The almighty God cannot create a number that is infinite because an “infinite number” itself is a logical fallacy. We can assume God cannot write a sentence in red using a blue pen because if a “blue pen” writes in red, the pen is essentially a “red pen”. Thus, NO in a sense. Please also kindly keep in mind that the answer “NO” of God does not equal to God’s failure to be omnipotent.

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The yes part of our question is slightly easier to grasp. The omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent God is able to take oneself off from the domain of logic, science and mathematics, of all are the necessary properties of physical laws. An approach to answer “YES” from the question cam be demonstrated by the fact that the almighty God has the ability, as fore mentioned, to create a number of infinity that is beyond our cognition, that number is intrinsically classified as an “infinite number” at a certain extent regardless of its logical contractions.

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After all, there is one more point I wish to introduce. As we have walked through the basic concepts of infinity, perhaps we can go a little beyond and answer the “now what?” question. Blaise Pascal, one of the greatest mathematician of the all time (or should I called him the greatest gambler…) evidently illustrated the dominance argument based on logical probabilities.

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Specifically by a two by two matrix,


God Exists God does not Exists
Believe in God Infinite Reward Finite Loss
Does Not Believe in God Infinite Punishment Finite Gain

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I think the chart is pretty self explanatory. As a man, there are only four possibilities one can have.
A) If you are a believer, and God does exists, you will be rewarded “infinitely”.
B) If you are a believer, and God does not exists, your loss is finite (ie offerings to ones church).
C) If you are not a believer, and God does exists, you will be punished “infinitely”.
D) If you are not a believer, and God does not exists, your gain is finite (ie time spared for ones material life)

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There is another approach from the above case, we assume believing in God & God does not exists results in no benefit and ultimately is a “finite loss” case. Interestingly, theists does live a relatively happier life statistically from the sense of religion comfort compared to atheists; hence we may categorized that kind of happiness can results in a “finite gain” in a believer’s case.  On the other hand, living a life not as happy reduces the level of “gain” from non-believers. The original “finite gain” of non-believers is reduced and we can assume the “finite gain” of a non-believer is lesser than the “finite gain” of a believer given that God does not exists.

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As illustrated, Finite quantity can be comared while infinite quantity cannot, at least from the human cognitive approach. Based on the most simplistic probability calculations, and regardless of  whether God truly exists, believing God is the most rational belief to have.

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Of course I am not to naively concluded Pascal’s logic is entire correct practically because considerations of other elements must be taken into account (ie, whether the christian God is initially and ultimately omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent). Nevertheless, viewing the issue at a fundamental basic aspect, believing God is mostly rational.

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“Eternity’s a terrible thought. I mean, where’s it all going to end?” quoted from the brilliant British playwright Tom Stoppard. infinity is indeed a terrible thought at first, but it is not too terrible when one tries to understand it logically.
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Memorti


A small chuck of UoA.

Woohoo! Finished writing my Botany Final!
And thereby, my third year university life had officially came to an end, formally and peacefully.

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There are a couple things I wish to bring out but overall, the third year university life is one of the most extraordinary experience I’ve ever had. Its simply fantastic, academically, socially, and in terms of general well-being.

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1st Semester

It was relatively disastrous. Selecting Japanese 101 as my art option was one of the move that I regret the most, still I do. I had absolutely no idea how difficult it is to learn another asian language; to be honest to myself, language acquisition is not  one of my talents, I probably even suck at it! I held a great grudge over my decision in taking Jap instead of something I am familiar with such as Chinese. But oh well, the brutal period has passed, I moved on.

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And next we have Biology 321, advanced evolution biology. From that I learned that I simply do not have to capability to take an 8am class. Everything starts off nice and easy as any typical student, freshly refreshed from an enjoyable summer break. First few class was fine, the goal of getting a high grade motivated me from the sweet warm bed; subsequently, I failed to get up and ended up missing most of the classes since the midterm 1. Well I still did ok in the final but I guess I took my lesson and there are absolutely no reason for me to take another 8am class, learning about natural history in the sleepy morning.

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Other Psychology classes I took were fine, pretty decent professors and the material are generally interesting. The time slots were perfect for me. One class I want to give my special credit to is Dr. Caplan’s brain and cognition class. It was probably the most interesting class ever. And I ended up doing very great in the class. (Which relates back to my second year where I took another class with him, thats where I learn hes a cool prof).

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2nd Semester
I had probably the best chance in getting a 4.0 in this particular semester, but I failed to. 3.9 is what I got, but Well I am glad that it did. This semester was both challenging and easy-going. Almost no exam based grade, but paper based. Great! I had to take some more art classes because I need the GPA boosting effect (except Japanese) and I need some more art credits.

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I am glad that I signed up for Dr Dickson’s lab although I must admit that he is rather intimating in most of the situations. I admire his ability to make his arguments and his capability to be creative. Intuitive thinking is probably the most essential elements in advanced science, the create something novel, you are required to be intuitive. Lots of work for me, although the grade he gave me was quite unexpected, I was glad that I worked in his lab. In the other hand, Jer Caplan gave me the third A, in this computational memory model class. There were 3 people in the class, probably one of the smallest class ever. But there cant be a better class than this! 3 people + professor investigating at a highly specific topic, there are a lot to learn from it. Presentations were great, I leaned to speak with a little more formal attitude and facilitating a little more professional and scientific terms, which are all critical aspects of my future.

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Chinese? Yes I paid $1600 and took a Mandarin Chinese course. It was one of the most ridiculous class ever. But in a way, getting a good grade is what I demand at that point. Classics? It was a good class, I learned about greek history and different gods. It provided me an deeper philosophical insight into systemic theology and allows me to discriminate between religious myths and the one true religion. Absolutely no regrets taking Chinese and Classics.

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It was probably the best semester I ever had.

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Spring Semester
The only one class I took was Botany, Drug plants. This class got me thinking deep. The combination of doing research in the previous semester and taking this course outputs an entire different perspective in me. Botany is quite different compared to pharmacology, at least in the philosophical aspect. It is safe to say that the Botany I learned is quite similar to the traditional chinese medicine that has 5000 years of history. Initially I had the chance to pick between between this course and another pharmacology class (Drug abuse) which are very related, I ended up with botany. 2 papers and 3 exams, the workload was slightly overwhelming, but it was ok; I was heavily trained to write papers. Good class, good learning.

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I don’t have a particular conclusion I want to make, but I merely want to say: I enjoyed.
SO here I am heading back to Hong Kong in 2 days, hurray!

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Memorti


A good simple photo should not be lazy, the photographer’s task is to directionally label the theme to the audiences with all the endeavor regardlessly.

What a good weekend. It was quite a relief after finishing that botany midterm.
Saturday Church was great as usual.
Sunday afternoon was relaxing, I was able to squeeze some time to give myself a couple photoshop lessons.

Learning and learning, never stop. Humbly speaking, my ability to endure the difficult properties of learning allows me to achieve quite a lot so far in my life.
Being NOT LAZY is what distinguished me from the vast population.
Being NOT LAZY is what I always remind myself.
Being NOT LAZY is the only way to prevent the burial of ones unique talents.
Being NOT LAZY is definitely going to get you somewhere.

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A “blow up” like  photo can be turned into something else, simply with a marginal twist.
Today’s midterm was a little brutal, I got confused by all those overwhelming chemical structures, they messed me up. I blew up.
God, I wish I can be slightly smarter ….


BLOW IT UP!!


蒲公英小黃花在亞洲好像很浪漫,在北美Ironically 地人見人憎
原因是因為蒲公英小黃花會搶丟花園綠草的養份
小黃花一定要連根拔起,不然頑強的它們不到幾天便重新再發芽
有點可笑吧…
BLOW THEM UP!


Blow me out into somewhere without frustrations!

Oh, I did some window shopping after today’s meeting with the pastors.
The new southgate apple store is VERY NICE.
MACBOOKPRO, few more weeks and you will BE MINE!

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God Guided “Magical” Events

Zeus was the god of Sky in greek mythology, he is responsible for the mother nature of the universe. Zeus symbolizes his power by his almighty thunderbolt, therefore makes him practically associated with thunders. By our general scientific knowledge of astronomy, we understand that the sound of  thunder are caused by a rapid increase in pressure and temperature produced from lightning. In fact, there are no direct scientific evidence that proves any god’s involvement in the creation of thunder. Intuitively, one can explains the thunder as a wrath of Zeus, which Zeus himself personally directed the sonic shock wave via the sudden increase of pressure and temperature. Both explanations are logically plausible. One cannot deny the involvement of a god simply because of one’s failure to observe god physically.

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The term “magical” is relative. Two centuries ago, flying is magical. Few decades ago, Internet is magical. The degree of magical is reflected upon the combined knowledge of mankind. Theoretically speaking, if we take the absolute proximal approach into “God’s magical events” – there is nothing mysterious about religious healing or any sorts of miracles. Assume Jesus’ ability to heal a person’s eye instantly involves the regeneration of the degenerated cranial nerves via a highly complex signaling pathway, or where the turning of water into wine involves a precise and specific pathway of alcoholic chemical conversion – whatever Jesus did back in 2000 years ago worked. Jesus evoked all sorts of unknown mechanisms, whether they were biological, chemical or physical approaches to heal, to feed, to change lives. If we were able to observe every single particle involved in Jesus’ miracle, then there is nothing mysterious at all.  Again, because the term “magical” is merely relative based on mankind’s general knowledge of the universe, God will ALWAYS be the magical one due to the fact that men’s knowledge will ALWAYS be limited. Unless mankind ever achieves the complete Wikipedia of knowledge, there is always something magical. The fact we know for sure is the ability of Jesus, he has the ability to change the natural events directly and indirectly through his capability. Jesus’ capability is undeniably “magical” to all of us.

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Let’s look at a specific example of a so-called “miracle”. Claviceps purpurea is a parasitic fungi that grows on common grains. Insects deposit their fungal spores on grains like rye during wet seasons, and the fungal spores grow hyphae (cellular mass) into ovaries of rye to get nutrients. When cattles and humans who eat the infected rye gets ergotism, a disease with terrifying symptoms such as gangrene, nervous spasms, psychotic delusions and convulsions. The ancient Romans referred the disease as Ignis sacer, a holy fire that cause burning sensations in extremities; the symptoms are retribution for sins. Ergotism was responsible for 40,00 deaths in Europe back in 944 A.D. Interestingly, shrines built for St. Anthony the monk were often find from where ergotism outbreaks occurs. The Shrine were a popular pilgrimage for those with ergotism. Most “magically”, many who made the journey were healed! It was simply a miracle.

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Well, now we know the gangrene of extremities is due to the plant’s vasoconsrictive effects caused by the ergoline based compounds which shuts off blood supply and leads to rotten extremities. We know now the ability to the MAGICAL recovery was largely accounted by the increase of peripheral circulation from walking to the shrine and a change in diet from place to place (no infected rye). The recovery is relatively not as magical to us at this modern world. In this case, the identity of god does not matter; could the “god” guided through the event and indirectly healed the patients through the long walk to the shrine? Definitely. In this sense, the “god” chose to use the mechanism of a “long walk” to increase peripheral circulation and healed the ill men.

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There are no question that Jesus’ miracles were FAR and FAR more “magical” than healing people with ergotism. If a person with ergotism walks up to Jesus – Jesus can probably elicits all sorts of “magical” events and heal his gangrene instantly, OR Jesus can direct him for a long walk. After all, Jesus is able to his job. Jesus can do whichever ways he want to and heal the sicked.

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Psilocybe mushrooms are often referred as the magic mushroom in our modern time. These psychedelic mushrooms had a long history of use in religious ceremonies particularly in Mexico and central America that dates back more than 3000 years ago. They were also named by the locals as “Teonanacatl”, God’s flesh. These hallucinogenic mushrooms were often eaten because of the belief to be able to communicate with gods by eating these “sacred mushrooms”. Effects of consumption are highly variable which is often influenced by mental state and environmental setting. These effects include, illusions and alterations of perceptions, distortions of shade, movement and form, visual effects of colors, patterns, wave motions, and dreaminess, sense of euphoria etc. The question is – can God induce prophetic visions on his servants by means of hallucinogenic elements? Yes, and God is likely to have a specific control of his brain state to view specific episodes. In the contrary, can God  induce prophetic visions WITHOUT hallucinogenic drugs? Definitely. Both ways are very plausible and “magical”, only varies in the choice of mechanisms.

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The concept of relative magical opens up many controversies of science. God may directed “magics” and “miracles” to trigger the creation of universe, whether through big bang, or string theories, and he may directed another “miracle” to create living things through evolution. The nature of this ordered world can be rationally induced by a God guided process.  Indeed the involvement of God may not be often necessary to many non-believers, but deeper considerations must be taken into account – the creation of  this complex ordered world through a non-guided process is highly improbable.

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There is one thing to keep in mind -  Can God create the living world without involving evolution, such as an instant pop of a human? Definitely, he can do that by a sequence of “magical” events.

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自由意志與末世宿命論

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「自由意志」與「末世宿命論」在字面上似乎是對立的,前者會引申出不可預知的未來,而後者卻會發展出已成定局的未來。究竟人的一生是跟隨「自由意志」的引 導還是受制於「宿命論」的框架裡? 這種「自由」與「宿命」的爭鬥,一直是個未解的神學論題,甚至是一個困擾物理學家多年的難題。因為從物理學角度來看,「自由意志」與「宿命論」的關係,正 是「隨機」與「預定」的關係,也即是「量子力學」與「古典力學」的關係。那麼究竟物理學與神學怎麼看待「自由意志」及「宿命論」的問題?我們又能否找出一 種機制能同時包容人類的「自由意志」與「宿命論」?甚至讓我們理解人類是如何從「自由意志」走向「末世宿命論」?

自由意志的物理觀與神學 觀
我們人類的意識思維主要集中在大腦神經元裡,而大腦是透過神經元之間傳遞信息來運作的,當中的信息就是透過神經元突觸之間的離子互動而產生的。 換言之,人類的意識思維是建構在離子流動,亦即電流。關鍵在於,這些電流不是單純的離子流動,而是離子間會產生互動。根據量子力學,離子可被看成波動(或 波涵數),因此離子與離子間可產生干涉現象,也就是這種干涉現象而組成大腦的意識。既然意識是一種量子干涉現象,它也必須受制於量子力學的基本原理,也就 是「測不準原理」。「測不準原理」告訴我們,一個粒子(或離子)的動量及位置不能同時準確地測量,我們最多只能從粒子(或離子)的波涵數求得其位置的機率 分佈,因此我們對於在大腦中流動的離子存有一定的不確定性,而這種不確定性也正是產生「自由意志」的關鍵因素。所以人腦跟電腦最大的分別在於,人腦存有一 種不可預知性,比起電腦單靠公式計算更勝一籌。正如英國著名物理學家Roger Penrose在其暢銷著作《皇帝新腦》中所說:「我們的意識思維應該有非算式的性質,而非算式的判斷正是意識的標誌。」。的確,在我們進行判斷時,很多 時候都是非算式的,至少很難想像一個人在決定是否買雪糕吃的時候也要用紙筆計算一番吧。其實Roger Penrose這裡所說的「非算式的判斷」,也正是我們一直討論的「自由意志」的同意詞罷了。既然「非算式的判斷」是意識的標誌,而「非算式的判斷」又是 跟「自由意志」等價的,那麼人類意識的標誌也就是「自由意志」了。

至於在神學角度裡,「自由意志」是否存在?又是否上帝賜予世人的恩賜? 根據聖經創世記2至3章的記載,上帝一早吩咐阿當與夏娃不能吃分別善惡樹的果子,因為他們吃後必死。不過後來夏娃始終抵受不住蛇(魔鬼)的引誘而吃下果 子,最後又給阿當吃了。這事件先後兩次顯示出人是有選擇權的,首先是夏娃自願選擇偷吃,後來的阿當也選擇吃了。整個過程中,蛇(魔鬼)只作出引誘手段,並 沒有強迫夏娃非吃不可,同樣夏娃也沒有強迫阿當非吃不可。理論上,上帝絕對有能力阻止阿當與夏娃偷吃果子,或是把阿當與夏娃的性格塑造成完全的順服。不過 上帝並沒有這樣做,因為祂要保留人類的「自由意志」,因為若人類仍能在「自由意志」的情況下順從主的話,這才寶貴,這才讓主得榮耀,如同以賽亞書43章7 節所說:「就是凡稱為我名下的人,是我為自己的榮耀創造的。」。試想像一個沒有「自由意志」的人,即使他如何順服主,這也變得毫無意義的,因為他就像按程 式運作的機械人般,無意識、無情感。上帝需要的不是完全順服祂的機械人,而是一個懂得自主而有血有肉的人。其實,人類這種「自由意志」的特徵也是來自神的 形像,根據創世記1章27節所說:「神就照著自己的形像造人,乃是照著他的形像造男造女。」。或許有人會質疑為何神的形像必須包含「自由意志」呢?「神」 的定義是一位全能全知而自有永有的造物主,如果這樣萬能的造物主卻沒有「自由意志」的話,這樣的「神」還算是造物主嗎?祂最多只能說是個超級機械人罷了。 因此在「神」的定義下必須包含「自由意志」的特性,而我們人類既然是按神的形像所造,那麼人類擁有「自由意志」也是理所當然的了。由此可見,無論是物理學 還是神學,兩者都認為人類是具有「自由意志」的特徵。

宿命論的物理觀與神學觀
之前我們在探討大腦微觀運作時,發現當中牽涉了量子 力學,是一種以機率作主導的機制,是一種不可預測的科學。然而在宏觀的日常生活中,無論是人類的走動、汽車的加速、火箭的發射或是行星的週期運動都是遵循 牛頓力學原理的。而牛頓力學是一個可預測的科學,即是只要對某事物掌握足夠的初始條件,就能按公式計算來預測該事物其後的運動狀態。就以推鉛球為例,只要 我們知道鉛球被推出時的速度、角度以及空氣阻力,我們就能利用牛頓力學的運動方程準確計算出鉛球的落點,這也是一般高中理科生也能辦得到的。或許有人會 問:既然牛頓力學有這樣強的預測能力,為何我們無法準確預測天氣呢?問題關鍵在於氣象學裡牽涉太多變數,如果要完全準確預測天氣,我們必須有足夠多的探測 器去量度空間裡每一點的風速、風向、溼度等的初始條件,然後再按牛頓力學去計算,理論上是可完全準確預測天氣的,但實際上我們不可能有這麼多的探測器,再 加上我們的超級電腦也沒法處理這樣大量的數據運算。故此,即是像天氣這麼複雜的現象也是遵循牛頓力學原理的。換言之,我們日常生活中大部分的宏觀現象都是 受制於牛頓力學,而牛頓力學也就是物理學上的「宿命論」。另一方面,一個更大型的「宿命論」一直隱藏在我們的太陽裡,甚至會影響整個太陽系的命運。天體物 理學家發現我們的太陽不可能永遠燃燒下去,因太陽是以其中心內部的核聚變反應來維持發光發熱,50億年後太陽內部的核燃料將會耗盡,屆時太陽將會膨脹成紅 巨星,其半徑將大於現時太陽與地球的距離,亦即太陽將會吞噬地球,而地球會被太陽的烈火所毀滅,這就是天文學家所相信的「世界末日」,亦是我們全球人類的 終極「宿命論」,或可稱為「末世宿命論」。

「宿命論」除了出現在物理學裡,同時也顯現於神學領域。以賽亞書46章10節說到:「我從起初 指明末後的事,從古時言明未成的事說:我的籌算必立定,凡我所喜悅的,我必成就。」,當中的「我從起初指明末後的事,從古時言明未成的事」就說明了上帝已 預知未來局勢,一切的變動盡在祂的掌握之中。再看以賽亞書41章22至23節:「說明先前的是甚麼事,好叫我們思索,得知事的結局,或者把將來的事指示我 們。要說明後來的事,好叫我們知道你們是神。」,這裡再次顯示神擁有預知未來的超凡能力。那麼我們人的一生是否都盡在神的預知之中呢?根據詩篇139章 16節所記載:「你所定的日子,我尚未度一日,你都寫在你的冊上了。」,這裡說明我們所過的每一天,包括過去、現在與未來的日子,其實早就被神所預知,而 且一早已成定局,也就是我們所說的「宿命論」了。不過,根據我們之前所討論,人是有「自由意志」的,而「自由意志」理應是不可預知的,那麼神的預知是否破 壞了人類的「自由意志」?其實「自由意志」的不可預知性是建基於觀察者與被觀察者彼此處於同一時空下才能成立,簡單地說,如果我(觀察者)站在你(被觀察 者)面前(處於同一時空),我是無法預知你下一秒會作出什麼反應,包括舉起左手、張開大口還是用腳踢我。神就不同了,因神是全能的,祂絕對不受時空限制, 於是祂能夠穿越時空到達我們未來的空間,從而預知我們未來所作的一切,但在過程中完全沒有影響我們的「自由意志」。因此,人類的「自由意志」與神對我們的 預知是沒有任何矛盾的。此外,神學也告訴我們人類會共同走向一個「末世宿命論」,根據彼得後書3章10節的情況:「但主的日子要像賊般來到一樣。那日,天 必大有響聲廢去,有形質的都要被烈火銷化,地和其上的物都要燒盡了。」,這裡說明了主耶穌再次回來的時候,地球及地上一切都會被被烈火銷化,這情況跟天體 物理學家預測地球將來命運是完全一致的。至於主耶穌再次回來的目的為何?根據約珥書3章1節記載:「到那日,我使猶大和耶路撒冷被擄之人歸回的時候,我要 聚集萬民,帶他們下到約沙法谷,在那裡施行審判。」,所以主耶穌再次回來就是要審判萬民,亦即審判我們每一個人,這又再次引申出「末世宿命論」。事實上, 整卷啟示錄亦是詳細記載了「末世宿命論」的信息,包括末世戰爭、末世災難以及敵基督的出現等。總的來說,物理學與神學都共同認為我們全人類的命運必然走向 「末世宿命論」的結局。不過這個「末世宿命論」並非基督徒的最終結局,因為我們基督徒是有永生並居於新天新地,如同彼得後書3章13節所說:「但我們照他 的應許,盼望新天新地,有義居在其中。」。

從「自由意志」走向「末世宿命論」
從以上討論得知,物理學與神學除了認為人類具有「自 由意志」的思維特質外,同時自身的命運卻又受制於「末世宿命論」的框架裡,這種矛盾的邏輯確實難以理解。我們要知道,既然每個人都具有「自由意志」,即是 每個人的行為都是無法預知,或可說是隨機行為。而全球人口約為60億,亦即60億個具有「自由意志」的人共同在地球上活動,他們所產生的行為更加沒法預 測,為何又會把全人類導向啟示錄中的「末世宿命論」的結局呢?假設每個人都有10種的行為選擇,那麼60億人所產生的行為組合足足有6 x 10^97個行為組合,那為何聖經又會說「末世宿命論」是唯一的終局呢? 其實形成這些疑問的關鍵在於我們的邏輯設定,而非聖經的自相矛盾。我們一直認為如果人有「自由意志」,就不可能出現「末世宿命論」的結局,反之亦然。這種 非黑即白的二元邏輯經常誤導了我們的思維,其實這個世界除了黑色與白色之外,亦有灰色地帶。接著下來,我將集中討論「自由意志」與「末世宿命論」之間的灰 色地帶,以及這個灰色地帶如何帶領我們從「自由意志」逐步走向「末世宿命論」。

在古典社會學或經濟學的假設裡,人被認為是獨立而理性的個 體,他會為自己最大利益而作出理性行為,而不受他人的影響。這種假設明顯是不設實際的,因為人與人之間的互動是社會中不可忽略的重要元素,而當中的互動跟 物理學中的現象有不少相似之處,於是在近十多年間逐漸發展出所謂的「社會物理學」。社會物理學家Mark Buchanan發現,在我們這個60億人的社會體系裡,個人的「自由意志」在群體現象中不是決定性的,反而人與人之間的模仿才是主因,情況就像電子的自 旋會受附近其他電子的自旋影響而改變方向。你試想像,如果有一天你發現街上有一名男子穿上迷你裙的時候,你會以奇異的目光投射在他身上。但若果你發現街上 越來越多男子開始穿上迷你裙的時候,你對自己堅持穿褲子的信念便會開始動搖。到了某天,街上大部分的男子都穿上迷你裙時,你堅持穿褲子的信念將會瓦解,並 加入他們的行列。這就是人與人之間模仿的威力了,而模仿的程度是會隨著參與人數的增加而增加,這就是為何衣著潮流會突然掘起的原因。事實上,社會物理學家 發現社會上的遊行示威以及暴動等的集體行為,很多時候都是透過模仿的形式瞬速蔓延開去。哲學家亞里士多德也曾說過:「人之所以強過低等動物,就因為他是世 界上最會模仿的生物。」。可見,這種群體模仿的方式會逐步蓋過個人「自由意志」的獨立思考,即使人的思維是自由的。然而,如果模仿只限於個人與身邊附近的 人之間互動的話,這種群體模仿亦難以傳遍60億人,更不要說是走向「末世宿命論」的結局了。

原來人與人之間的互動還有另一種機制,這就是 「六度分隔」。「六度分隔」現象早於1960年代已被美國心理學家Stanley Milgram的實驗所證實,他發現全球雖然有60億人,但任意從中抽出兩個人的話,這兩人之間大概只相隔了六個的人際關係。舉個例子,若果我想寄一封信 給美國總統奧巴馬,遊戲規則是:我只能寄給我相識的人,而這些人也要轉寄至他們相識的人,結果會發現這封信大概轉寄了六次便能到達奧巴馬手上。這種「六度 分隔」現象並不難理解,因為我們總會認識一些住在外國的朋友或親戚,而他們也會有自己的社交圈子,而社交圈子裡的人又會有各自的社交圈子,如此類推,一個 社交圈子可以緊扣數十個或上百個其他的社交圈子,形成一個龐大的人際網絡。因此,60億人的社會體系卻能出現「六度分隔」的親密關係,再加上現時互聯網的 發展,相信這種「六度分隔」已進一步壓縮成「五度分隔」或「四度分隔」的更親密關係,所以「六度分隔」又被稱為「小世界理論」。關鍵問題在於,這種「小世 界理論」如何影響上述所討論的「自由意志」與群體模仿的關係?我們要知道模仿不能單獨發生,它必須經過觀察他人以及搜集資訊才能成形。而「小世界理論」正 是一種加速資訊流動的機制,能夠把世界各地發生的大小事情經由龐大的人際網絡瞬間地傳播開去,這將促成人與人之間的跨區域模仿。所以你不難發現香港的衣著 潮流總是相似於日本的,這就是一個跨區域模仿的具體例子。更嚴重的例子是,當世上第一枚原子彈於1945年8月6日在日本廣島引爆後,隨後的數十年間,蘇 聯(俄羅斯)及中國也相繼進行核武研究,現在甚至連伊朗也要加入核武競賽,大大威脅全球安危,這又是一個跨區域模仿的實例。「小世界理論」跟群體模仿結合 所產生的跨區域模仿,不但使個別行為形成集體行為,而且更大大地縮減了人類因「自由意志」而產生的大量行為組合,這就是迫使人類走向「末世宿命論」的關鍵 因素之一。

不過,跨區域模仿雖然能促成人類的集體行為,但似乎也不足以把全人類導向唯一的「末世宿命論」。近代科學發展了一個新的分支, 稱為「知性科學」,主要是研究人類的意識如何跟自然界產生互動的一門學問,當中牽涉了不少量子力學原理,也就是我們之前探討人類大腦的「自由意志」時所談 論過的。其中一位從事生物物理學研究的科學家Fritz-Albert Popp發現,人類會從自身的身體發出一些光子,而當這一些光子被其他個體吸收時,將會產生干涉並影響該個體的意識。換言之,Fritz-Albert Popp所提出的「生物光子發射」現象將促使人類產生集體意識。事實上,「生物光子發射」並不限於人類,而是包括各樣生物。這也解釋了為何大群雀鳥在空中 飛翔時能夠形成有秩序的隊形,即使改變飛行方向也不會產生碰撞,相信就是雀鳥之間的「生物光子發射」讓牠們產生集體意識。研究發現,集體意識背後潛藏著難 以置信的能力,是一種可改變事情發展方向的能力。2001年9月11日美國時間早上9時15分(香港時間晚上9時15分),全球的傳媒都在直播紐約世貿中 心的恐怖襲擊,同時全球數以億計的人民都專注在這件人間慘劇的時候,安置在全球不同地點的37部隨機事件產生器的輸出值竟然比平常出現更規律的情況。也就 是說,911事件讓全球人類產生高度的集體意識,而這種集體意識卻影響了隨機事件產生器的輸出值,從隨機產生規律。其後,位於美國的加州知性科學研究院 (IONS)以及普林斯頓大學的異常現象研究所(PEAR)亦進行了類似實驗,他們也證實了人類的集體意識的確可改變事情的發展,而且如果誘發集體意識的 事件越嚴重,集體意識的程度亦相應增加,所產生出來改變事情的能力就越大。事實上,這種因人類集體意識而把某些事情的可能性變成真實的現象,也正是量子物 理學家兼諾貝爾獎得主Werner Heisenberg所提出的哥本哈根詮釋:人類有意識的觀察導致量子崩塌現象的發生。簡而言之,哥本哈根詮釋告訴我們,人類的意識可大量減少事情原本的 各種可能性,最終只出現唯一的結果,這就是量子崩塌現象的精髓。如果把這種現象套用在大腦神經元裡,即離子與離子間的量子干涉現象(個人意識的各種可能 性)會因人類有意識的觀察而導致量子崩塌現象的發生,崩塌的後果就是產生唯一的集體意識,而就是這種集體意識把事情從各種可能性中導向唯一的結果。

總 而言之,60億人的社會體系會因人與人之間的模仿、跨區域模仿以及「生物光子發射」現象,把原本具有「自由意志」的獨立個體逐漸推向集體意識的成員,這種 集體意識除了讓群眾產生共同的集體行為外,亦因集體意識的觀察而使某事件從各種可能性中崩塌成為唯一的結果,也即是集體意識會把世界局勢導向唯一的「末世 宿命論」。當然,究竟是什麼樣的集體意識才能把60億人的社會體系導向唯一的「末世宿命論」呢?這是非常難說的,可能是人類對末世災難的恐懼,也可能是人 類對末世戰爭的關注,亦可能是人類對敵基督的崇拜,實在有太多不同的集體意識都能夠促成「末世宿命論」的實現。不過我可以肯定的是,我們不應忽略上帝介入 的因素,因為「末世宿命論」始終是上帝救贖人類計劃的一部份,祂必然參與其中,而主耶穌再次降臨本身就是一種介入了。除此之外,我認為上帝在派遣主耶穌再 次降臨之前先有另一次的介入,這就是末世災難。根據馬可福音13章19至20節記載:「因為在那些日子必有災難,自從神創造萬物直到如今,並沒有這樣的災 難,後來也必沒有。若不是主減少那日子,凡有血氣的,總沒有一個得救的;只是為主的選民,他將那日子減少了。」,從中可見上帝是完全掌控這些末世大災難, 否則祂並不會減少那些日子。雖說上帝介入了末世大災難的發生,但並不代表上帝介入了人類的「自由意志」,人類在末世時仍有「自由意志」去作選擇,只是上帝 在適當的時機就會引發末世大災難,從而間接影響人類的集體意識。此話何解?我們之前討論過集體意識的程度是取決於誘發事件的嚴重性,災難越嚴重,集體意識 的程度越強,改變事情發展的能力就越大。根據路加福音21章25至26節對末世大災難的記載:「日、月、星辰都要顯出異兆,地上的邦國也有困苦,因海中波 浪的響聲,就慌慌不定。天勢都要震動,人想起那將要臨到世界的事,都要嚇得魂不附體。」,當中的「嚇得魂不附體」就是人類對未世災難的反應,可見末世災難 的嚴重程度是前所未見的,比起當年911事件實在有過之而無不及,不過末世災難跟911事件有個共通點,就是必然引起全人類的高度關注,而高度關注的後果 就是產生高度的集體意識,這種集體意識也將加速引領我們進入「末世宿命論」的終局。或許會有人質疑既然上帝是慈愛的,為何要引發末世大災難來折磨世人?相 信大家還記得挪亞洪水災難吧,當年上帝之所以要以洪水滅世,皆因當時世人都犯了罪,正如創世記6章13節記載:「神對挪亞說:〝凡有血氣的人,他的盡頭已 經來到我面前,因為地上滿了他們的強暴,我要把他們和地一併毀滅。〞」,所以上帝唯有以洪水作為世人的懲罰,如同創世記6章17節所說:「看哪,我要使洪 水泛濫在地上,毀滅天下,凡地上有血肉、有氣息的活物,無一不死。」。同樣,上帝在主耶穌再次回來時引發末世大災難,也是要藉此懲罰世人的罪孽,因為主耶 穌在馬太福音24章37節曾向門徒說:「挪亞的日子怎樣,人子降臨也要怎樣。」。故此,末世大災難是上帝懲罰罪惡的手段,是必須發生的,是一個預定了的 「末世宿命論」。

原來,我們一直認為「自由意志」與「末世宿命論」是互相矛盾的概念,到頭來卻發現它們之間其實是一種因果關係:上帝給予 人類「自由意志」,而人類卻濫用「自由意志」的天賦來到處作惡,代價就是換來上帝引發末世大災難的懲罰,亦即「末世宿命論」的結局。我們的人生只是游走在 「自由意志」與「末世宿命論」之間的過渡階段,而我們在這個階段的灰色地帶中卻受制於人與人之間的模仿、跨區域模仿以及「生物光子發射」現象,促使我們產 生集體意識,而集體意識配合末世大災難的引入將無形中帶領我們走進「末世宿命論」的黑洞之中。關鍵在於,我們在這個過渡階段中會利用「自由意志」繼續沉淪 在魔鬼掌控的罪惡之中,繼而成為末世大災難的受害者?亦或透過「自由意志」去選擇接受主耶穌的救贖,從而穿越「末世宿命論」的黑洞而成為進入永恆天國的子 民?

Another very insightful article from a friend

終於到左星期日
Calgary Trip

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拿著$3000Cash 真的有點不安
入了兩部D300s

Muhahahahhaa

其實是因為Philip 要在Red Deer (紅鹿市)証道, 我們才坐這”順風車”去Pick up 相機
九時正出發, 買了個很貴的McDonald 早餐車上吃
十時多到了Red Deer, 這華人教會是借西人堂的一個課室來聚會
嗯嗯

想想, 不論去到哪裡, 所信的都是同一個祂, 牠的特性不會因著不同國家不同語言以改變
有點感性, 其實可說是基督教使我挽留一點人性 XD

教友年紀都比我們高, 聽他們分享到 “這一切都是上帝的預備” 我十分高興
當然我亦會想想另一個立場
非基督徒會相信一切是巧合
基督徒相信一切是神的預備
兩個立場都可以有一個十分Plausible 的解釋, 簡化來說是沒有邏輯上的問題
當然 我自己比覺喜歡向基督教一面提出疑問 (注意, 不是懷疑性的質問)

一切都是神的預備? 一切有點過分牽強吧了?
幾得Grade 10的聖誕節, 跟homestay 到了他們的西人教會
事奉人員給大家一根蠟燭,
崇拜時一個一個傳火點蠟燭
突然我附近的一個中年女人不小心燒到了前面大衣上的毛毛(這些帽子上的毛毛)

這女人立刻狂對火吹..
熄火了… 還帶留著一點火羅味…

這也是神的安排嘛? 一常身活中, 一切疏碎的事件都是安排嘛?
當然, 比較Extreme 點, 我可說 “是, 對, 是牠的安排, 安排我現在去思索這問題, 從而對牠認識更深” 等等這樣的解釋
又亦或是大事才是被安排的?這樣我們怎樣去衡量甚麼是大事, 甚麼是小事? 不大不小的又應該比classified 在哪裡?

想到這裡, 我的腦海中不禁浮出Roger Ratcliff (1978) 的Diffusion Model
嗯嗯, 另一個記憶Model
Diffusion

Diffusion 2

Parameter Z = Initial Boundary , Zero
Parameter A = Top Boundary Threshold
Parameter O = Bottom Boundary Threshold
Parameter U = Drifting Parameter
Parameter S^2 = Variance of Drift

套入這個問題, 人生就是一個Drifting Processes, Threshold 就是盡頭
所有Events, 不論大小都是關連於 Drifting Parameter 和 Variance
Difting Parameter 是跟著靈性而改變,
Variance 就是一個可大可小的數
相信聰明的大家都明白這個比喻

當然科學就是將Observed 的, 套入一個理論
理論可以不斷更改, 而Observed 的就不會, 不同的就是Oberseve 的時間和環境的不同
Observe 不到, 不等如沒有

嗯嗯
今天入了支18-70mm 3.5-4.5 (只因暫時性窮困)

Memorti

prodigalgod

其實要證明上帝存在很簡單
1) 假設上帝存在
2) 假設上帝聽禱告

簡單來說, 只要將我們的實驗對象(ie 病人)分為兩組
第一組樣別人為他們祈禱
第二組是核實組, 沒有人為他們祈禱
最後若兩組病人病情好轉的指數達Signicifant difference 就證明上帝是存在, 否則就不存在

對, 十分可笑吧? 2006 年其中一個美國研究部告就指出有沒有禱告對冠心病病情是沒有幫助的, 所以上帝不聽禱告? 或是上帝不是全能? 或許是祈禱的方法錯了? 亦或是上帝更本不存在?
這Term 讀Computuational Memory Models, 就是想將記憶系統化作一條公式,增加A就減少B -> increase recall.
在公式裡要加入不同化的原素,不同的假切, 再將數據匯進不同的記憶理論裡,從而解釋記憶是甚麼
再看看, 實驗裡矛盾的實在多得很, 就只有觀察到的才計算在內? 上帝的選擇權應該放在公式哪裡? 考慮到禱告跟上帝預備的屬性? 個人跟上帝關係因素?

今天下午下課後一口氣看完了朋友介紹的一本小書 : The Prodigal God
相信大家都聽過浪子回頭的比喻吧
其實真正的浪子不只有一個, 大兒子跟父的距離也許比小兒子跟父的距離更遠
叫人警醒的一本好書

“There are two ways to be your own Savior and Lord. One is by breaking all the moral laws and setting your own course, and one is by keeping all the moral laws and being very, very good.”
怎讓有德行, 怎讓在教會虔誠, 何樣作好榜樣, 最終要問問自己 – are you doing it for yourself? or for HIS joy?
很喜歡書中提及了莫札特傳一個例子

敘述者 Salieri 說 “Lord, make me a great composer! Let me celebrate your glory through music – and be celebrated myself! Make me famous through the world, dear God…. In return I vow I will give you my chastiy my industrey, my deepest humility, ever hour of my life… Amen and amen!”

看了這齣電影的都知道, 當莫札特踏進了Salieri 的生命, Salieri 狠狠地罵上帝說 “From now on we are enemies, You and I… I like myself… Till he com. Mozart”
就像大兒子一樣, 恩典總是不夠用
看到別人的成就總是要抱怨
最大問題就是一切都為了自己

跟上述的實驗一樣,當自己是生命中的主哉時,上帝存在的可能性是零
自己的杯子都裝不進上帝,又怎能看得見上帝在人子身上的工作呢?
計算上帝是否存在的公式就是生命歷程,要計出答案需要增加不同的Conditions, 加入不同的Variables, 全都是生命中的點滴

我深信其中最重要的一個Variable便是 - 謙卑的功課

嗯.剛去了友人的Bachleor party…
沒甚麼可以說..,哈哈?
Memorti

第二天六點起床

全部都賴床, 唯有跟他們一起 miss 巴士… =.=
幸好都沒有怎樣遲到

累, 還是需要咖啡

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Janet Janet Janet

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Edmonton 吃不到的牛筋河~

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又到星期一 Worshop, Topic 有點不貼切 現在都忙了她說了甚麼…
對了 研究指出冠心病患者較容易在星期一病發 =.=

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Auntie Cora 沒有睡掉?!?!?

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Activities

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Joycee

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Ivannn

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Orgnaizing their plays

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自己很喜歡黑白人像照 <3 <3

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Christmas light

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Janet is either sleeping or have her hand in front of her face.

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Kiana and Anson

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Nigher Service… It was boring.

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History of Violence

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No comment

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And Sushi for dinner, it was decent, $14 and I was still hungry.

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Yum Yum

這個晚上發生了很多事, 考驗了眾人的團結
相信大家都成長了, 冥冥之中人控制不到的事還是需要依靠祂
你說這只是找個心靈依也好, 人就總不能處理所有問題
感性中也相對地有著自己的理性,

Problem solving approach  is not always the solution when the matter is out of our hands, emotion solving approach may fill in the gaps which the former fails to.

我也在學習怎樣不將所有事情理性化
Out of control 的感覺不好受, but guess this is the way things are in nature.
我們看到的計劃也不一定是最好, 然而人應多學習去信靠牠所預備的

這晚我也不怎樣開心,  看他們玩True or Dare  讓我分心一下

說真的, 其實兩次Winter Conference 學到的都不是從聽道或上Worshop而來
反而是從大家一起面對困難時認識到上帝賜下的恩典
最中要的是每次WC完後 大家的感情與對大家的認識都加深了

從理性的角度想WC對不信的與老油條, 就算是信的也不怎樣化算
4日3夜, $50大元車費, 食的自己出, 每天兩三點睡六點起床, 坐的有是Cheap 車, Conference 講員又不是特別吸引
短短一個假期為何要這樣折磨自己?

神奇的是, 上帝的作工就是超越理性
經歷到的永遠是意想不到

第一天坐了差不多八個小時車…
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Canmore Town…. 吃個午餐就走了真的有點浪費

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Regina 點的波菜Thingy

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Canmore
Canmore 挺美的

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對, 由於Budget 問題我們只可坐黃巴士, 暖氣很有問題 =.=

Yellowbus zombies
Yellow School Bus Zombies

Canmore town

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餐廳

晚上去吃了珍之味… 比Edmonton任何一間中國餐館都要好吃…

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Anson 的手
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又是片皮鴨 (點解加拿大無得食鵝??)

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擺酒

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Mary and Auntie Cora :>

除了吃之外都沒有玩甚麼,
晚餐後坐巴士回到借住的Apartment
chill and chill

雖然很累 卻睡不著

待續

*Oh, its the first day of 2010! Happy New Year!

Memorti