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It’s almost OVER! The Term just slipped by like a BLINK. I can’t even believe that last day of class is over. 2 more exams and then I am OFF TO GO.
Just need to cram more for the last 5 days….

Chills

Okay. It is pretty simple.

Travel -> Photoshoot -> Eat -> Photo Editing -> Eat->  Sleep -> Get Paid -> Travel -> and it goes on….

Of course life is never this simple (unfortunately?).  But well, that is the life I seek for, at least for now.

That’s that. We are having this so-called reading week now, its practically a brief week for students to slack and be prepared to get grumpy about school once again.
What did I do? Photo Editing? Hahaha, being sluggish I must honestly admit.

Sometimes people say when you dream big, you get greater disappointment when you failed; and we all know that is not true.

Now what is my big dream? Well I have one that I thought of today – to become a world class photographer & photojournalist.

At least I have a dream now.

My head is literally stuck. 2011 had not been fun except the photography parts. All these matters are just overwhelming and I am suffocating very slowly. I guess the frustration of life came from the parts where expectations don’t meet practical life; everything seemed ordinary while I wanted to be extraordinary. Indeed, life’s like that I know, but it just simply hard to suck it up.

There were moments that I believe I am not intellectually capable of achieving something extraordinary – I lacked the self-confident that I used to have. What did I learned in these four years of professional education in this highly recognizable university? Relations? Knowledge? Laws of business? So far, I can’t really think of anything that I actually learned accept recognizing my limited capability. Darn, I am emotional (well sometimes).

After talking to my supervisor and a few other professors, and given the restricting policies of the graduate school board, i am a little inhibited from my grad school applications. I am almost certain that I lacked the primitive motivation to do graduate school at this point of stage (perhaps this point of stage could just last a week…). I know I know, we Christians are suppose to obey whatever God’s lay for us even it seemed blurry and hopeless. It is not easy to let go of my heavy ego and empty myself to God.

Oh I hate depressive episodes…

Woohoo, finally got a chance to play again my speedlights after Christmas!

Lighting had been quite successful thanks to Pauline’s creativity…
Yawn really don’t know how to explain my current mood; my mind is stuck (+outside is freezing)

And it turned out that going to grad school is mainly my mum’s desire; not mine. Nonetheless I am not going to naively follow my own will.. Need to talk to some more people…

Seeking my true passion…

After talking to my supervisor today my brain cracked open again. Grad School or Work? Grad School here or elsewhere?

Doing grad school outside Alberta (ie HKU) will almost stop my photography business’s growth completely and this is probably not what I won’t. I can’t believe I refused to sign wedding contracts based on couple emails inquiry. Well I didn’t say I am not going to take any Fall contracts but I am trying to be especially careful with any weddings after August.

Can’t believe this. Given that, doing a Masters degree at the UoA is most ideal right now… and the grad school policy for international students are driving me nuts… (Excuse for me to get married with a Canadian haha…)

Wow…. It’s just going a little crazier than I thought.

Wow, Christmas break went by fast.
It had been all about:
1) Organizing Camp
2) In-Camp
3) Recovery from Sickness after Camp

Birthday week went smoothly and a little better than what I expected. Wow… I’ve got so many photography projects booked up for this year and its going to keep me really busy… (Probably flying back to Hong Kong for a week in the middle of school term because of a wedding shoot). Hum, courses I am doing now probably won’t be as easy as it was for the last two semesters. 1 Research class, 1 elective, and 2 lecture classes = YUCK.

I will probably have to make the toughest decision in 2011 – Grad school or Work….?
And so far it is shifting to Postgrad School Education…

Christmas Eve was boring.

Hum, I am a little depressive lately even though its christmas day, why? Because birthday is coming again. This is probably the first time in 3 years I don’t have to waste my little birthday 24 hours frame on a flipping yellowbus going to Calgary Winter Conference. It’s strange after 3 years of no birthday wishes and birthday song.

Anyway, I am looking forward to boxing day tomorrow and do some shopping… I need some new shoes seriously.

Exams were over, blink – just like that.

I am pretty optimistic about my grade this term so lets not talk about them as of now (well I am quite bitter on the Biol supervisor though). I am so grateful about our youth camp; EF is truly a blessed fellowship group. Now the committee seriously needs to spend more time on it to make it worth everyone’s 3 days 2 night.

Since exams are over, I got a little more time for photography (finally! YAY!). Lets rock with all these lights that I bought long ago but never got a chance to practice with them!

Hey! ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS, BOXING DAY, BIRTHDAY, AND NEW YEAR!!!!!